Thoughts.

Love is such an overused word. it gets thrown around so much that it doesn't seem to have meaning each time it's used. It's just a normal thing to say. Sometimes the feeling gets used to, and you don't feel like you have to try as hard as you used to in the beginning of the relationship. When if anything, you should never stop showing your other how much you love them. And sometimes when you cry so much, they just get used to seeing it. And it doesn't effect them as much as it did the first few times they saw you cry. We as girls cry because we are fighting against those feelings telling us to let go. but knowing that if we do let go, we will regret it. Because knowing how much potential your relationship has. But we are just trying to figure out what is going to happen if we keep holding on. But the pain and tears is almost so worth it, that you would do anything to keep that person in your life. You almost feel ashamed that someone could be that important. That without them, you feel like nothing. You can't stop showing that person that you love them, especially if they are worth all the stupid little fights. The things that are the most important are the little things that let them know that they are in your heart and in your mind. Also, you cannot over think things. You'll create situations that were never there. Or you will create bigger problems out of the small things. You have to fight through the bad days to earn the best days in your life. You gotta treat them how you'd like to be treated in return. Make them feel important, special and that you're the only thing that matters to them, and don't stop making them feel that way. Love with all you have. Choose your love, and love your choice.

Senior Pictures

I know I haven't blogged in so long, but life is so crazy! Im a Senior. Hard to believe right? I can't   believe I'm almost done with high school! Well Anyways, here are some of my senior pictures taken by the wonderful Max Atwood!

this girl has her best friend back ♡

The day consisted of a bouquet of roses, four wheeling to the prettiest spot, dinner at my favorite restaurant (Happy Sumo), swimming at Fermountt, watching a movie, naps and laughing and holding each other. There are no words to describe how amazing this day truly was. I got my best friend back, and the love of my life back. Life honestly couldn't get any better! 9 months and still continuing on this journey with this babe of mine. I am so blessed.

missing piece.

Hopeless.

The one word I can use to describe how I feel right now. Without you by my side, I don't know who I am.  I feel like there is a missing piece. I don't know how to take this all in. I don't want to take it all in. This is the last thing I wanted to happen, and I thought it was the last thing you wanted to happen too. I guess I was blinded. Though I felt as if I knew it was going to happen. Slowly being let go of, I sure felt it. And it was denied over and over again. But here I am, laying in the same spot for hours. Pounding head, Blurry Eyes and Cluttered thoughts.. I almost feel sick to my stomach.  Giving someone everything, and being let go of is the worst feeling. Why did I let it happen? Because I loved you... because I LOVE you. But I have to let it go.

senior homecoming ♡

seventh month.

When you truly care for someone, you don't look for faults. You don't look for answers. You don't look for mistakes. Instead, you fight the mistakes. You accept the faults and overlook the excuses. The measure of love is when you love without measure. There are rare chances that you will meet the person you love and who loves you in return. So once you have it, don't ever let go. That chance might never come your way again.

grateful for him.

I could never describe how grateful I am for this boy. He has made me a stronger person and has helped me and been there through thick and thin. I could never thank him enough for all the amazing things this boy does for me. He is so respectful and can always see when something is wrong. He can basically read my mind. I can trust him with anything, and I am so happy for that. We are completely opposite people who work perfectly together. I love you dakota walker. ♡

Efy 2012.

summer is here.

Maddy Wood

This is my beautiful cousin. We decided last minute to hurry and do a quick photoshoot and they turned out amazing. She is beautiful.

Junior Prom

My boy.

This boy means more to me than anyone. Though we have our ups and downs, I know at the end of the day everything will be okay. He has made me feel like the most important girl in the world. And he never fails to impress me. He knows the exact words to say, and he does what he says he is going to do. Nothing means more to me than someone who keeps there word. Though I know I am not the best at it myself. I am working on it. He is the best thing that has happened to me in a long time, and I am so happy he's mine.

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Cluttered Thoughts

How do you know how much you can put into something before giving up? I always seem to ruin things. I can't ever seem to plan things with out other things getting in the way. And it's not like I mean to. It's frustrating when you don't know what more to do to fix these things. Especially when it's all you have ever wanted. I'm not an expert at this whole relationship thing, and it sure is showing. I can't deal with my emotions perfectly when my mind can't stop thinking about one person or one situation. The worst thing is going to bed confused or broken. It's not easy. And the other worst thing is hanging on and feeling like the only one fighting. I know I messed up, but everyone makes mistakes. Nobody is perfect but I'm trying my best to be just that for you. Trying to fix things about me so I'll be like every other girl is not easy. Being able to not eat what I used to is not easy. It's put me through some of the worst mood swings I've experienced. But I keep going, because who wants to be known as "the fat friend."? not me. And It makes me hope you'll love me that much more if I do. My mind is cluttered and I can't think straight. There is so much going on and so little of words heard. And it's beginning to make me think I don't have any hope. Nothing I do can fix what I've done. And I can't live with that. I can't break again. I don't think I could handle that. I just need this storm to pass. No one will understand the way he makes me feel. He makes me feel like I'm the only important person in this world. But how do you know what's true when that one person won't even speak a word to you? It puts thoughts in your mind that you wish would just go away. It cuts you down and makes you feel worthless. Like I can't do anything right. I just wish everything can be okay.

Time Away

When you are away from someone for a period of time, you can really see how important they are to you. You can see how they have formed to be apart of your life and daily routine because once they are away it's almost as if a part of you is missing. Even the smallest and shortest distance can seem too great to overcome. When you get attached to someone or something, being away from it for even the slightest bit could cause you to rely on it that much more and it's hard being away from it. Almost like a drug. The more it becomes apart of your life and the consistency of you doing it or being around it... it's hard being away from it. It doesn't feel normal. And it's almost like you crave it. You need it. And you start to rely on it for happiness. Another example is a relationship with someone else. And time away from that person could also cause you to grow closer to them. I've learned that with true friendship continues to grow even after the longest distance. Same goes for true love. Distance never separates two hearts that truly care. And when I seem to get sad because the one I care about is not around, I just remind myself how lucky I am to have someone as amazing as them to miss. So never take the time you have with someone for granted. Because you never know when it might be your last day or theirs. Time is valuable. And distance will make you realize that.

self timer.

i'm a nerd, but it was a very sunny day. and I was alone and in the mood for more pictures. what can you do.