Never Give Up

Without motivation, we would get no where in life. Everything will get worse before it gets better. But when it does, remember who helped you up, and who put you down and doubted you. Do not base your decisions on the advice of people who don't even have to deal with the results. Base it on yourself, and what you truly want. Be strong, and never give up on what you want. True strength is being able to keep going and holding it all together when no one would blame you for giving up and falling apart. You change for good for one of two reasons. Either you learn enough to want to, or you've been hurt enough that you just have to do it for your own happiness. If you want something bad enough, you need to do everything in your will to get it. The only thing standing in your way to get what you want, is you. There are no excuses. Excuses are for people who don't want it bad enough. Don't give up because you had one bad day. Forgive yourself and be better tomorrow. If you give up, you'll never get to the point you want to in
life. It may seem hard at first, but it will be all worth it in the end. And if you do give up, don't pity yourself. Because clearly you didn't want it bad enough to change. I will not give up. I have already come so far, and I feel as of I'm becoming happier and more confidant because of it. Yes, I have my bad days, but I won't let it get in my way. I will be the person I want to be one day. I won't stop. I can't stop. I am doing this for me, and for all the people who to this day, continue to doubt me. I will prove them wrong.

Lucky Me

Often we don't realize that what we have could one day be gone. And if we have something good, we got to do all we can to keep it. Don't take advantage of what you have. Especially if it's the best you have had. I have learned that. I get bugged over little things and I get jealous easily. But it's only because I care. I never used to be jealous, but then I started loving you. Now I’m jealous of just about every girl that you talk to, smile at, or even wave at. It’s all because in those seconds when you look into their eyes, I’m not on your mind. Or atleast that's what I think. I’ve ruined many relationships by over thinking too much. I think it may be all these guys’ faults... but really, it’s just me. I think I deserve the worst & I usually end up making it that way. Guys will run away from me because I’m just too hurt for them to handle.
But it makes me so happy knowing that he can put up with it. Though I know it is never easy for him. I'm happy to call him mine.

Hong Kong

I had the privilege to travel to Hong Kong with my dance studio The Vibe and perform in the Chinese New Years Parade! It was amazing. My absolute favorite trip I've been on. and I spent it with my favorite people. I will never forget this.

Here Comes Happiness

It's almost as if right when I though things couldn't get any worse... It all just suddenly seems to get better. I honestly haven't been this happy in a long time. And I feel more confidant that I ever have. And it is all because of one boy. He is one of my best friends, and I've found myself falling for him. And he has helped me learn to always accept and feel comfortable with your flaws, that way no one can ever use them against you. And he makes sure I feel important every time we talk.
If someone makes you happy, then the rest shouldn't even matter. And I am learning that. I am not the type of girl to have a boy friend, but he honestly makes me see things in different ways. He is different then all the others. And we are already so close that we have an amazing friendship built. He has seen every side of me. Good, and bad. And he still wants to be with me. And that makes me like him that much more.
When you find a guy that is respectful, opens all the doors for you, helps you with your homework, gets you little things "just because", and is always putting you first before other things... Keep him.

It Starts Today

Today is going to be my first day to happiness. i'm changing for the better. And I cannot give up. Because excuses are for people who don't want it bad enough. I'm doing it for the past boyfriends, for that ONE dress, to actually see a change in my body and health, for all the times it put me in bad moods, for that confidance boost, for being able to love my reflection, for summer time in shorts and bikinis, for getting rid of my big boob reputation, for the stares, for those killer legs, for being able to sit and feel comfortable, for proving them all wrong, for acutally being comfortable with a guy picking me up, for all the boys i wasn't good enough for, for the gap between my legs, for rewarding myself with clothes, for being able to pull off wearing that certain shirt, for loving myself, for being able to try on clothes and not saying "i'm bloated", for being the healthy friend, for all the times i let it get the best of me, for the people who ever dared to call me fat, I am doing this for ME.