missing piece.

Hopeless.

The one word I can use to describe how I feel right now. Without you by my side, I don't know who I am.  I feel like there is a missing piece. I don't know how to take this all in. I don't want to take it all in. This is the last thing I wanted to happen, and I thought it was the last thing you wanted to happen too. I guess I was blinded. Though I felt as if I knew it was going to happen. Slowly being let go of, I sure felt it. And it was denied over and over again. But here I am, laying in the same spot for hours. Pounding head, Blurry Eyes and Cluttered thoughts.. I almost feel sick to my stomach.  Giving someone everything, and being let go of is the worst feeling. Why did I let it happen? Because I loved you... because I LOVE you. But I have to let it go.