Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Another one gone.
I guess you could say i'm just shocked. I'm going to drop it all after this. But I just never thought this would have ended like this? The fact we won't even talk. And lost respect for you because you didn't really say anything at all. Looks like I have to lose yet another best friend. Hope you and her are happy together. And I honestly do mean that. Because there is a reason we are being pushed away. friends come and go. And i'm fully aware and used to it... Probably because I let people walk all over me and just try to let things go. I feel like i'm always the one that loses the fight. But i've gotten pretty good at doing just that. But like I said, I hope you two work out. Treat her well, and don't do anything stupid. you both desreve to be happy. Everyone deserves that, and though I am still looking for that, I am 100% positive that I will honestly be happy one day. God puts people in my life for a reason and takes them out for an even better reason. And I truly believe that. So there is a reason this is all happening now and so fast. I'm just going to have to get used to not being able to text my best friend everyday. And being able to call eachother whenever and tell eachother about our day. I am so greatful I was able to meet you, and the times and talks we have had we're amazing and i'll be able to look back and remember the good times. Once again, thank you for everything and nothing all at the same time. You have your life set out in front of you and I won't be able to fit in the small space you have given me. You and I will always be unfinished buisness. And I am still completely blown away at all this right now. Because you have never acted like this. And I honestly thought you never would. But I guess we could say thats just life? We need to accept things and move on... And we have to accept that nothing will be the same any more, even if one day we do become friends again. And realize that those who are honest with themselves and others will get further in life, and i hope you are honest with her about us.. Because from what she has told me, it's different than what you say to me. And I appolgize for anything i've done because I actually value my relationships with people more than my ego. I guess you just have to be willing to be happy about nothing. So i'll go on with my life, and you do the same.
Posted by sydney taylor bruning